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I hate it that you’ve changed.. That I’ve changed.. A hole is growing inside of me just knowing this simple fact, and I hate it.. I just do!! I want my friend back & I know that I’ll never get to see you again.

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“It feels like someone kicked you in the stomach, feels like your heart stopped beating, feels like that dream — you know — the one when you are falling and you want so desperately to wake up before you hit the ground, but it’s all out of your control. You can’t trust anything anymore, no one is who they say they are, your life is changed forever, and the only thing to come out of the whole ugly

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Almost all my close friends know this fact about me, I get deeply depressed around the time of my birthday.. My depression phase starts by mid-May, when I come to realize that a year had passed & nothing changed and there’s almost no time left for anything to happen; and it reaches its peak on the 24th of June.. I close all my phones, I try as much as possible to withdraw myself & get self

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I miss you!! I just want to pick up the phone to tell this, "I do miss you".. And I miss the days when I could easily do that.. Can I just dial your number to just talk, plain talk; or even better to not talk!!

Confused Spiritnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1518681137212924900.post-32934619573683579992011-05-08T22:26:00.001+02:002011-05-08T22:26:53.936+02:00

At last, I cracked.. It was long overdue & I’ve been waiting that moment!! Not that I meant to do that way, but it feels nice.. The feeling of tears running down your cheeks, for nothing except you feel you can’t take it alone anymore.. It feels nice to know that I’ve no one but my tears to relieve me when I can’t find comfort anywhere else.. I don’t want to do this anymore…

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Was I ever that excited for something new??!!! A month ago I wouldn’t imagine such a change, actually two weeks ago that thought would have never crossed my mind.. I needed a change for so long, everything happened so fast that I still have some trouble figuring it out.. But I am happy & excited.. Here is to a new beginning.. to a fresh start P.S. You’ll always be my soulmate, I will never shut

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I guess it was rather weird.. I just wanted to ask WHY, but never knew to whom I should address my question. I was off that square long time ago, why the heck am I going back to it now?? Is it that I really like that version of myself!! It really is uncomfortable, because I don’t & will never do like me that way.. If only I couldn’t see, if only I couldn’t hear, for a split of a second.. I keep

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Have you ever felt that your heart is sinking down your stomach every time you breathe?? That a huge weight is sitting down you chest that you can’t even catch a breath?? That’s me for the last few days..

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  يا بخت مين زار و خفف

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One day I will own a Rolls Royce…

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A couple of days ago, I took an opportunity of teaching a 9 year old boy Math et Sciences.. I thought it was not such  a big deal, I’ve been teaching much more complex stuff than materials of 3eme primaire, I should have thought twice!! I sat right next to that little kid trying to figure out a way to tell him that the difference between 220 & 240 is only 20, and so he should follow this rule to

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A loooooooonnnnnnnnggggggggg time indeed away from my blog, I never realized how long it has been until today when I decided to post de nouveau.. No specific reasons for that disappearance, not that anyone cares in the first place :).. I was looking for reasons myself, why haven’t I posted any of my drafts, why haven’t I completed any of them either?? I also have no valid reason why I am back

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This concept of sharing anything & everything is becoming harder & harder for me to understand, starting from your feelings, your thoughts, what is really going on with you; moving to sharing resources both materialistic as in sharing a room; and non-materialistic like the air you breath with other persons; then to sharing your whole life with a complete stranger, or sharing your body with your

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Is it okay to call someone in the middle of the night, just because your heart aches; but then you find nothing to say, no words to tell him/her how you feel so you end up by hanging up leaving them as bewildered as you are maybe worse? Is it okay to feel that you love someone, or to trick yourself into falling for them; only to find out that you are ashamed of this person and that you can’t

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This world is not set up for failure and demise and decline. It is set up for improvement and expansion and better and better, and better. And so it must get better and better, and better. We are born to be the best we can be, and to make the best out of our lives. This other day I was thinking about how my life sucks, how I don’t like it anymore, how everything is taking the wrong turn, and I

Confused Spiritnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1518681137212924900.post-9056554310518967752010-05-02T01:00:00.001+03:002010-05-02T01:00:08.999+03:00

If I were ever granted a wish to change something about my looks, it would be to change the shape of my fingers; to add some length to them, actually I want them to be really TALL!!

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I would like to introduce you to the winner of that title “ the fool of April”… And the Oscars goes to; the winner of all time; ME :) Can you believe it??? For the second year on a row, I managed (ONLY by myself) to break my poor heart again, only this time I managed to break someone else’s along the road.. And also this time I got some morals out of the story.. I was able to identify some of my

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“Will you enter a relationship where you know priori that it can fail with a probability of 80%-90%?? Will you take that risk, because deep down inside you know that if it did actually work it’ll be the best relationship you’ve ever had??”Here’s a story that might help getting what I am talking about:Show encrypted text

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I miss Friday’s breakfast with my whole family Mom used to wake us up every Friday “Es7o ba2a kol da nom, kefaya kda, el fetar gahez”. To find a whole breakfast meal prepared on the dinning table, with our father the first to arrive. We used to joke around, tell stories about our week, we used to bond together. Now I get to know that my brother is travelling by accident, and that my sister

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Back in college, the introduction lecture of a course was only a question “What is the only reason for disappointments??” None of us guessed it right back then, but it was ‘EXPECTATIONS’ I kind of agreed for a while with this notion;  that to diminish my disappointments in life, I’ve to lower my expectations, or at least expect the worst & be prepared for it. Well, let me tell you this, you’ll

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Une de mes copines m'a envoyée cette vidéo.. Un duo entre Edith Piaf et Théo Sarapo, et je l’ai bien aimé… Théo: À quoi ça sert, l’amour? On raconte toujours.. Des histoires insensées.. À quoi ça sert d’aimer? Edith: L’amour ne s’explique pas! C’est une chose comme ça! Qui vient on ne sait d’où.. Et vous prend tout à coup Théo: Moi, j’ai entendu dire.. Que l’amour fait souffrir.. Que l’amour

Confused Spiritnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1518681137212924900.post-70521932471753293362010-02-26T03:10:00.000+02:002010-02-26T03:14:11.129+02:00

Eve was created to give Adam company in heaven, hence we shouldn't be left alone.It is just too hard...

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The story of prophet Ibraheem has always found a way to get into my heart; an amazing test of faith... How can a father slaughter his son, willingly, his eldest son, and the one he's been waiting for a long time? Did he know that his son is going to be saved at the end, and what did sayedna Ismaeel think right at the moment his father asked him to sacrifice his soul? Was it really that easy to do

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Didn’t I warn you already to be careful of what you wish for, because it’ll come true?!! And here it is, life treated me the way I wanted, EXACTLY!! So now what, I guess it is time to stop wishing b2a… You came up with a theory, believed it, put it in action & proved yourself right, so why continuing the pain?? My head… It’s exploding 7’alas!! I can’t think of one thing, I have like zillions of

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So it’s a new year already. Will it be like its predecessor? I hope not, and I really want to stop that agony in my heart, to stop the ache that wakes me up every morning to get me all depressed. The year started in a good way, actually it was the perfect start for it, and at least I know that I slept with that smile on my face. I want to say that I know it’ll stay that way; however I know it

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It doesn't feel good when you are replaced, especially when one realizes they have replaced themselves!!Is it ever too late to try again & start over??!!!

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My apologies for being me... I can't pretend otherwise, but why do I feel that I need to prove myself? I am letting go of everything & I am totally aware of that fact.I am sorry for being so distant lately, for not being a friendly person, for not giving back what I took when needed. I wake up everyday to find myself taking another step further, or maybe I am just standing still & life is the one

Confused Spiritnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1518681137212924900.post-50677334944750350622009-12-17T10:14:00.001+02:002009-12-17T10:15:40.209+02:00

Dear God, Would you please interfere, or maybe send someone else to do it? Would you please end it, because all I am doing right now is screwing things up? You saw me trying, right? I did try to do things the right way, or the way I thought it was right, but I guess it is not!! I mean, it was You who said to asked us to be patient in our tests, and You know am not that patient person, but I did

Confused Spiritnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1518681137212924900.post-59282054029158376192009-12-15T00:43:00.000+02:002009-12-17T10:19:11.710+02:00

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I wonder where I am getting myself into; I wonder how it would end… People are getting hopeless with me; because they get the feeling that I won’t listen!! It’s frustrating that I am a hopeless case...

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Surprisingly enough it comes around exactly the same way as it went around… It reached a new low, my relationship with my father… And it’s all my fault, based on my friend’s conclusion. So what’s next?? Coz actually I got bored of this situation, where I am actually stuck at hating him & he hating me back.. Why doesn’t he get that if I am the worst child on earth then it’s merely because he’s

Confused Spiritnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1518681137212924900.post-41444056953366706432009-12-04T00:20:00.000+02:002009-12-04T00:39:25.210+02:00

… It might as well come true It is like walking alone in a forest; that is what life is to me. Dark & gloomy forest… You meet people there, you start making friends & allies to help complete your goal; and your goal is to survive in that forest until your name is being called. Rules are being set long time ago, everyone is aware of these rules, but there is no guarantee that they will obey them

Confused Spiritnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1518681137212924900.post-21099386567103433082009-11-27T23:19:00.000+02:002009-11-27T23:22:16.379+02:00

It’s been a long time since I last wrote anything down here, maybe it’s because everyone is telling me that my writings suck, literally everyone who had the opportunity to review my paper. I suck big time at writing & it is fine by me. It took me some time to realize it, but I finally did it; I don’t really care if this is what they think… Anyhow here I am celebrating the eid, what a fantastic

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In my quest to build my vision, I wanted to know what the criteria to have a solid vision are. Then I got stuck in front of a question; should my vision be a static or a dynamic one? No one would actually die for a vision, but they would do if they have a cause to fight for. That last statement is a hypothetical one, I can’t really prove it, and it’s just how I see things. So the next question

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So he finally graduated, and we attended his graduation party which was very exciting but at the same time veryyyyyyyyyyyyy long. It was an open air party, full of speeches and photos. I guess everyone enjoyed their time. At least, I know I did. I am so proud of my brother; I really truly love him so much!! Congrats my dear, and finally it was the perfect end to the holly month J

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Decisions shouldn’t be made haphazardly, I guess.. They should be made in context with a greater goal or vision. Those decisions are the ones we face in our every day life, when things go really bad & you need to take a corrective action in order to stop them… So people in general should set their own goals at some point in time, they should seek to attain something out of their lives, and they

Confused Spiritnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1518681137212924900.post-7493406041128237282009-10-16T00:04:00.001+02:002009-10-16T00:32:54.574+02:00

Two years ago, a day like today, it was a very gloomy day, the sky was angry. It kept lightening & thundering for the whole night. Two years ago, a day like today, I went to college early in the morning, I remember that day because I wanted to see you, I knew I am going to see you & I did, that mysterious person who entered my life just like that, and I felt good about it. I was so curious about

Confused Spiritnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1518681137212924900.post-82579748000800667622009-10-12T20:48:00.001+02:002009-10-12T20:48:19.462+02:00

I still can’t believe, I am still in shock!! Was it my father yesterday?? Do I even remotely know him?? I was raised by him & he was the one who taught me the right from wrong.. Is he that desperate!! I mean am I that Looney Tune & I can’t even realize it?? Am I that hopeless case that he had to turn to those people.. Why is he treating me like a baby who won’t understand what’s going on with

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What if I am not dreaming of being a great scientist or a company’s chief-of-command?? Will I be judged nuts & lacking ambition?? What if I wish I could live on an island, in the middle of the ocean. Living in a house on a land area of 5 acres, with planted gardens of all different sort of fruits & vegetables. With a little tea-house sitting on a small hill in the north-eastern corner of my

Confused Spiritnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1518681137212924900.post-36663653098145449872009-10-10T21:53:00.001+02:002009-10-10T21:53:23.798+02:00

“You’re being insecure.” That’s what my friend told me as a conclusion to my talk with him about my current status in life & in work. I couldn’t agree more, and it’s not because I’m lacking faith or anything. My insecurities are coming from those around me. I don’t know how to deal with them. I once wished to be given a human manual when we’re born. I have a question I want to ask myself & I

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I am content el 7amdolelah.. I finally managed to complete a whole book.. It wasn’t a very interesting nor very dull, but it was something new to me, I mean that in almost four months I was unable to concentrate enough to read something. I wanted to write about it yesterday, I just couldn’t open my writer, because I finished it by midnight & I couldn’t get any sleep since the morning so I had to

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She’s suffering from insomniac for over a month now, she actually can’t sleep when the house is so quite, the thoughts are floating to her mind, the noises they make are so loud that she finds it hard to just close her eyes & puts herself to sleep. She notices how the circle with walls of sorrow is closing in on her, because she lives in a perfect world that is being destroyed by mankind. She

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I’ve been told, actually I am more convinced, that a house is ruined when a mother leaves it, whether by natural causes or due to some complications with the father. It’s never ruined when a father leaves it for the same reasons. I’ve been also told, that a divorce is much more difficult on the children than the death of one parent. I can’t really know why, but I guess knowing that it wasn’t

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All kind of relationships are like investment to me… I invest time, power, effort, money, thinking, almost everything… I give these things to the other party as they play the role of bank owners, I deposit them in my account to be invested… To make our relationship grow… Off course they’re supposed to do the same thing, or to the least to pay me back their debts if they’re not interested to make

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I wonder how mute people express themselves.. How do they live?? Do they feel their incapability?? Is it much harder for them than it is for me?? To not being able to talk, to express your needs & what is going on with oneself.. I know for a fact that the reason why I can’t express my feelings is my family, my father’s side to the least, because for them every single word is “3eeb”, we shouldn’t

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I like dividing words into three categories:  unspoken, written and spoken words. My best friend among them are the unspoken words, I just love how they seem very nice & sweet in my head, and I’d have loved it if people could listen to them so I wouldn’t have to deal with the spoken words since I really hate them. As for the written ones, I do like them, they’re better at expressing myself to

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Couple of days ago I had an eye operation to remove a chalazion.. I don’t recommend anyone to have it, I have no other alternative but just don’t do it. IT HURTS SO MUCH :( Anyhow it made me think about pain, and how last Wednesday I thought I am going to die out of pain but here I am alive and kicking.. So here’s what I’ve learnt: Pain exists & we have to feel from time to time to

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Traditional Cancer Traits: - Emotional and loving - Intuitive and imaginative - Shrewd and cautious - Protective and sympathetic On the dark side: - Changeable and moody - Overemotional and touchy - Clinging and unable to let go The Cancerian character is the least clear-cut of all those associated with the signs of the zodiac. It can range from the timid, dull, shy and withdrawn

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Don't expect anything, because there isn't anything here to mention...Have a nice day!!

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